I Want I Need

I Want I Need

I want to write, but can't

I want to fly, but shan't

I need to feel alive

I need to heal, revive

I want to draw, but don't

I want to soar, but wont

I need to find my love

I need to rise above

I want to go, but stay

I want to grow, but stray

I need to speak, confess

I need to shriek, express

–

By J. Barrett

Father Knows Best

Father Knows Best

When I was a little boy, 

I was short and not too thin.

My father put me on the rack,

To stretch my stumpy limbs.

Now I'm over 10 feet tall,

And I bend in a strong breeze.

But it's not all ash & vinegar,

I get the best fruit from the trees.

By J. Barrett

Breathe

Breathe

Good things come to those who wait.

Unless, you're moments from your death.

And you're deep down under the water,

And you need another breath.

By J. Barrett

Fatty & Skinny

Fatty & Skinny

Jack Spratt was a skinny chap,
His wife was a fat old hen.
When they stood beside each other,
They resembled the number 10.
And when they had the money,
They would go out on the town.
They never needed to hire a cab,
Jack would just roll her around.
When Jack's wife wanted a baby,
Poor Jack, never before been laid,
He ordered a big bag of flour,
Which he'd need to find his way.
He dusted her with the powder,
And found her holiest of caves,
But her fat rolls swallowed him up;
And he didn't come out for days!

By J. Barrett

Sinking 'Ship

Sinking 'Ship

This 'ship is going down!
We've hit something hard.
And cold.
Is that your heart?
Or is it mine?
No longer beating in time.
This 'ship is going down!
Women and children first.
Save our souls
Our hearts
Our love?
Got to try and stay above,
But the waves are crashing over me.
Waves of guilt; of fear.
I feel so lonely.
This 'ship is going down!
Got to try to get away.
Before I'm pulled back;
Dragged down,
Drowning.
In my tears,
In your tears.
We could flood an ocean.
This 'ship is going down!
Will I rise to the surface?
Or sink down – down – down –
And drown?
Should I stay aboard?
Or jump into the safety
Of the unknown?
The blue is beckoning,
Calling. I know it well.
My life's a misery,
A living hell.
The bow is going under,
The back-end is still afloat;
I curse the day we ever met,
And boarded this sinking boat.
The cold is lapping at my feet,
Filling me with chills.
My heart, it feels no difference,
My heart is cold. And still.
But my mind won't stop chattering,
Never has. Never will.
This 'ship has gone now, my love
Our end is, oh, so near.
We.
Never should have taken this trip,
Of us. With you.
It's going – going – gone –
Our relationship.

By J. Barrett

Sorriness

Sorriness

I know you're hurting,

I feel it too.

You can't invest time,

And walk away clean.

But this pain,

This shattered heart,

It mends, goes away,

When a new life starts.

I'm so sorry.

I don't want you to hurt;

But should I be unhappy,

To keep you happy?

I care about you.

But I care about me too.

There is no hate,

What we had was good,

No, fuck!, it was great.

But things can change,

They usually do.

And I need to do this,

I know you're hurting.

I am too.

By J. Barrett

Time

Time

        Killing myself.
                Slowly,
                        with cigarettes.
        Poisoning myself.
                Harshly,
                        with wine
        Driving too fast
                down a one-way street.
        But which way is right?
                I don't want to die, but
                        I want to kill what we have.
                I don't want to hurt you, but
                        I want my heart back.
It's time to stop.
        Killing myself,
                with cigarettes.
        Poisoning myself,
                with wine.
Loving you.
        It's time to start.
                Enjoying life,
                        with cigarettes.
                Enjoying a glass,
                        of wine.
                Time for me to get on with life,
                        without you by my side.

By J. Barrett