YOLO

YOLO

Fuck all the bullshit!

You just have to laugh.

Do what you want,

fuck the aftermath.

You only live once,

is this generation's creed;

But a life of regret,

is what it really means.

Not treat your body and spirit,

with careless regard.

You only live once,

so live with your heart.

Follow your dreams,

give love and receive;

And do give a care,

about the people you meet.

But don't give a shit,

if they treat you like crap,

use and abuse you,

and put knives in your back.

And who gives a toss,

if you try and you lose?

“You gave it a go,”

should be good enough for you.

And who gives a hoot,

if people see you as strange?

Feel with your heart,

think with your brain.

You only live once,

so make it your best;

We only get one,

nothing more, nothing less.

By J. Barrett

Over It

Over It

You can only treat someone like shit for so long,

Before they finally see,

all that is wrong.

That maybe you're not all you appear to be,

That façade you portray?

It's crumbling and weak.

And that deepest of fears,

that you've always known,

That you are doomed forever,

to be alone.

By J. Barrett

Junk

Junk

that stinging pinch on your softest of skin

watching your life cloud inside that barrel

ready to plunge; head first into oblivion

the only place you can never take your pain

that feeling of warmth travelling ever upward

riding on a beating current of life and lies

doing it's work to take you out of this dirt

that's polluted your mind since before forever

and when it hits, it hits hard and you're reeling

you're gone, you have vacated your shell

and every little bit of pain you were feeling

has been numbed, left down below to be still

sooner or later you will have to come back

less you will suffer forever in your mind

but that feeling of sun, of floating on your back

is only a needle away

By J. Barrett

To Be Rescued

To Be Rescued

She waits and waits
for her rescuer.
For that perfect man
to come and save her.
But the men who come
and the same that go,
Aren't that perfect one
she's dreamed of though.

If only she knew
that her rescuer,
Doesn't exist in her life
or anyone else's either.
He is but an illusion
of who she needs to be.
She's her own saviour
if she could only see.

She waits and waits
for her rescuer.
For him to come to her
take her and save her.
But that day'll never come
he'll never come to help
never come to her aid.
She can only save herself.

By J. Barrett

Used Worn

Used Worn

Like a train over a coin,

squash me on your tracks.

Abuse me like a rose,

when the wild winds attack.

Use me like a needle,

put me deep under your skin.

I'll wear this mask forever,

haunting you with this grin.

By J. Barrett

Boobies

Boobies

Show me your Boobies,

And I'll show you my Cock.

I'd so love to see them,

I enjoy bird watching a lot.

By J. Barrett

Come Away

Come Away

Come away with me,
Let's run, run away.
We can go anywhere,
And there we'll stay.
As long as I've you,
With me by my side,
We can go anywhere,
And there we will hide.

By J. Barrett

So It's Over

So It's Over

What started as a fling,
Ended with a fling;
Like a monkey and his poop.
But, god damn, I'm still thinking
about you.
You flung yourself into my life,
Brightened my day and illuminated my night.
Then with nary a word,
You were gone, just like that;
Like I just rolled over and switched out the lamp.
So it's adiós amigo and thanks for the ride;
You've shown me it's time,
I should get on with my life.
But I always know you'll be a part of me still,
We delved too deep,
We went to the base of that well;
Where the algae that grows
isn't affected by light,
Where all that it seems, just doesn't seem right.
Where the dregs of our love,
Sorry, our affair, at best,
Will forever remain,
With all of the rest.
Those women I've loved,
That I once held so dear,
When under that water,
My head disappears.
Lost in this feeling
that I've, to be honest, felt too much,
That same feeling for you that I thought equalled love.
But with the love and the lust and the forgiveness for ones self,
I'm thinking that, maybe, I might need some help;
To get through these days without you in my life,
So I don't get worked up and pull out that knife;
Again.
Yes, again. I've been here before;
And, I know, sooner or later you'll mean nothing to me more
than the other ones did,
For whom you replaced;
So I'll keep wearing this fake grin,
Upon my love tortured face.

By J. Barrett

Looking To The Sky

Looking To The Sky

The days have been so dreary,

Without you being near me.

The sun is cold and lifeless,

Hanging lonesome in the sky.

When night falls, looming darkness,

And the winds're crooning, heartless;

The moon, it winks so slowly,

High in that starry studded sky.

When will you be returning?

To settle down this yearning,

Of a man who's lost and lonely,

Always staring up to the sky.

The days are spent being blinded;

At night, it is always reminded,

That, love, it comes and goes,

Like moon and sun in the sky.

By J. Barrett

The Muse

The Muse

She came to you out of nowhere it seems;
Riding on a butterfly's wings of dreams.
The inspiration that you always need,
Making the words out of you bleed.
But, will those words still belong,
Once she has up and gone?

By J. Barrett

Down and Out

Down and Out

He stares down at the people below,

Huddling from the same wind that whips at his hair.

Some rush about their hectic lives,

Oblivious to his presence watching them from above.

Cars creep along black strips of road,

Driving to destinations never for him to know.

He feels so removed from them all,

Omnipresent to their simple existence.

As the wind whips his hair across his face,

Bathed in the glow from the setting sun,

He feels like joining them down there;

But he has always been alone, never been a part of it,

Always the outsider, never a belonger.

The simplicity of society has always rested on his shoulders,

Like the immeasurable weight of God's hand;

He can feel that same hand giving him a nudge,

A push in their direction,

The direction of normality.

Oh, how he wants to join them, to be one of them,

To end the pain of being different,

Of being alone.

His feet are on the edge, hair whipping his about face;

A glance up across the rooftops to the heavens,

To the dying throes of a brilliant sun.

A grieving heart, stalled in its beating of hurt;

A sudden inhalation of breath;

A foot over the edge;

The hand of God at his back, easing him into space;

The floating sensation of falling gently down,

Like a leaf in the breeze, he is a life in the wind.

His hair billows behind him,

Making a final grasp for something solid.

And he's falling, floating, the street coming up to meet him,

He has their attention now, the hand of God has left him;

Most are just staring, and he grins at this irony.

The car didn't stand a chance.

As neither did his fragile body.

Broken and bloody, and stretched upon the glazed metal,

His pain ebbs from him in spurts and flows,

And, finally at rest, his eyes close.
All he ever wanted, he now has,
To feel that sweet feeling of peace he never had.

By J. Barrett

Peep Show

Peep Show

You're dancing for me in your underwear,

forgive me, but I can't help but stare;

Jiggling your jugs and wriggling your hips,

I can feel you affecting my manly bits.

The music is loud, from the speaker it thumps,

your hands're caressing your lady lumps.

My eyes're transfixed on your milky white skin;

Is that a pic of your face, that person missing,

on the side of the carton, gripped in your hands,

covering yourself with its milk as you dance.

You're not really missing, that much is too clear,

dancing for me in this private booth here.

You're smiling at me, but I can tell that you're faking;

I don't really care, so I could be mistaken.

You pick up a toy, one that makes me feel lacking,

and after it's lubed, you start to really get cracking.

I pay some more money, for this act I must watch,

I'm glad you decided to ramp it up just a notch.

I couldn't care less that you're faking your pleasure;

Couldn't care how much you're making, however,

I do care that you can get the whole length of it in,

And still maintain your false, pleasurable grin.

It's girls like yourself who make it easy for us men,

To save a bit of money and rush to the end.

I mean, for 1 dollar a minute, it's money well spent,

And probably only one of us, this act we'll resent.

So, I'm glad that you grew up with your daddy issues;

And I'm so glad they refilled this box of tissues.

By J. Barrett

Attack of Blue

Attack of Blue

You have to go,
I know this; restart,
You need to grow,
Find out who you are.
But I'm selfish, don't want you to leave.
Wherever you go is is too far.

You're standing there,
As life continues,
Your bags are packed;
All I see, is you.
Please don't go, leave me feeling like this,
Having a heart attack of blue.

Then it is time,
You're ready for this.
A last embrace,
With one final kiss,
You tell me you'll love me forever,
And I'm braced for all that I'll miss.

So walk away,
I know you have to.
But don't look back,
Because if you do,
I'll see the pain in those pretty eyes,
And have a heart attack of blue.

By J. Barrett

Come On Home

Come On Home

We just talked, talked on the phone,

But my heart sits heavy, heavy as stone.

I'm; I'm all alone.

So please baby, please,

Come on home.

You left, saying it was best;

Maybe for you, not for me.

You gave your reasons, and the rest;

You tried to make, make me see.

Then you were gone, gone on the wind,

And I was left standing alone.

My legs wouldn't move, my feet were pinned,

And my eyes leaked my silent bemoan.

We just talked, talked on the phone,

But my heart sits heavy, heavy as stone.

I'm; I'm all alone.

So please baby, please,

Come on home.

It has been quite a while now,

I'm not sure really how long.

And I have made this solemn vow,

I'll make it through this, I'm gonna be strong.

When you come back, back to me here,

I will never let you go, ever again.

Because the truth of the matter is simply clear,

You're my lover, my soul mate, my best friend.

We just talked, talked on the phone,

But my heart sits heavy, heavy as stone.

I'm; I'm all alone.

So please baby, please,

Come on home.

I can't believe that you've come back,

After all of this time gone away.

Now our life can get back on track,

I can't wait for that, for those words to say.

Because, still you're not here,

Still millions of miles away;

Every second I shed a tear, every minute's a year,

Every word spoken, are my feelings portrayed.

We just talked, talked on the phone,

But my heart sits heavy, heavy as stone.

I'm; I'm all alone.

So please baby, please,

Come on home.

Please baby, please, come on home,

How much more of this can I take?

I'm sick of being tired, and I'm tired of being alone,

I'm living in a nightmare, with no view of escape.

I've pleaded and begged; I've prayed.

I've done all that I can do.

It was up to you, babe, to go away,

Coming home? Now, that is only up to you.

By J. Barrett

The Damage Done

The Damage Done

I see your back ahead of me,

And I'll follow you 'til the end,

Wherever you may take me,

Whatever happens around the bend.

Take me to the depths of Hell,

To the icy plains above;

Whatever we do, I'll never tell,

I can never have enough.

I can't survive without you,

You inject life into my brain;

I remember when I could choose,

Before I needed you in my veins.

A deaths-head where my face was,

My reflection seems so dim.

It can't be caused by you, 'cause,

You make me feel so good within.

And when you're not inside me,

When my blood is running bare,

The pain, it starts to ride me,

To the tip of every hair.

I know that I should leave you,

Get away and not return.

But I need me to feel you,

To feel that loving burn.

I need to have that cold steel,

Go beneath my skin;

To forget all of what I feel,

And silence the demons within.

But, it's time now to close the door,

Make another deal of mine;

I ain't gonna do you any more,

Well – not until next time.

By J. Barrett

The Death of Love

The Death of Love

I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry that you cried,
Now you're gone forever, and what we had has died.
I never bought you flowers, you said my heart was black;
I've sent a ring of roses, but you're never coming back.

The good times, they were good times. But our fights were really bad.
I took so much for granted, never cherished what we had.
Our last fight was the worst one, I did something I thought I'd never do,
Of all the times we'd argued, I'd never raised a hand to you.

But this time it was different, you'd pushed me over that crumblin' edge;
I can still see you lying there, sprawled out on the bed.
You'd yelled you'd never loved me, that you'd faked it every time,
That you'd been with many others, you were never really mine.

I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry that you cried,
Now you're gone forever, and what we had has died.
I never bought you flowers, you said my heart was black;
I've sent a ring of roses, but you're never coming back.

I lashed out at you in anger, I grabbed the first thing that I saw;
The two blades glinted in the light, then they became real short.
I looked at you with anger, you looked up at me in pain,
I pulled the scissors out of you; and drove them in again.

Your painful screams were like the thoughts bouncing in my head,
You wailed that awful deathly song, until you lay still on our bed.
I looked down at your body, at that blooming crimson rose,
Your pretty breasts that'll never rise, glistening eyes that'll never close.

I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry that you cried,
Now you're gone forever, and what we had has died.
I never bought you flowers, you said my heart was black;
I've sent a ring of roses, but you're never ever ever coming back.

I wasn't allowed to attend to send you off, to show my grief;
My soul is dead, tormented, while yours now lays at peace.
I wish I could've stood there, staring down into your grave,
I would've let my tears for you roll rivers down my face.

We might have argued harshly, when times got rocky and rough,
But I'd give away my everything, to have you back, my love.
My life is a lonely emptiness, and I no longer here belong,
I've run away from everything, and I've been running for too long.

I'm sorry that I hurt you, I'm sorry that you died,
I want this feeling of remorse to finally subside.
I can't believe I lost you, my lover and best friend
It's time for me to join you now, this blade'll be my...

By J. Barrett

Escaping

Escaping

His teeth ache from the grinding;

His head is circling where his minds in.

He's high again and that's fine,

trying to escape his own mind.

The thoughts that confuse him,

that are almost abusing,

won't stop coming without blockade,

of this life for himself he's made.

But with the poison in his brain,

he feels calm and safe again;

The high ceases all the chatter...

...and nothing else seems to matter.

By J. Barrett

Breaking Bread

Breaking Bread

Breaking bread at midnight,
Draining blood at dawn;
Tell the beast that's inside,
What is going on.

Feeling hastily made up,
And near not the norm;
Feel like half a person,
That was here before.

Staring at reflections,
That distort and twist;
Knowing that this feeling,
Surely will persist.

When that deep hole's calling,
Beaten black and blue;
Know it's only human,
To endure 'at's true.

By J. Barrett

Words

Words

Words are my only true friends,

The only ones who stick around.

They're cheerful when I'm happy,

They're glum when I am down.

By J. Barrett

Senses

Senses

The taste of your kiss on my tongue,

The scent of you hangs in the air,

The feel of you quivering 'neath my fingers,

As I brush my cheek across your hair.

The sound of you gasping with pleasure,

The sight of your eyes filled with awe,

And the knowledge that I'll always have you,

That I will be lonesome no more.

By J. Barrett

The Storm

The Storm

The clouds are rolling in, blotting over the sun.

Blackening the blue sky, a storm's about to come.

A flash of lightning illuminates the bulbous blackened mass,

A thunderous throat is calling, as the rain begins to splash.

The ocean waves are thrashing, rising up to the smoky cloud,

That's throwing down its insides, with the thunder booming loud.

Another strike of lightning, cracks open the dying sky,

Those thunderous clouds are rolling, turning day to night.

The rains are falling heavier, the angry sky throws down it's woe,

But up there in the heavens, the sun begins to show.

The clouds are rolling onwards, less angry than before,

That growling sound of thunder, now just wind upon the shore.

The oceans dance is calming, froth floats upon the deep,

The crackling forks of light are gone, as the storm begins to sleep.

The glowing yellow sun disc, starts to melt the clouds away,

The storm has gone, passed over, leaving just memory and rain.

As the sun gets brighter, breaking through clouds hazy cover,

The rain begins to dry off the land, and the storm is finally over.

By J. Barrett

Doubt

Doubt

Smoke passing through wet lips,

Wispy clouds of cotton.

Standing all alone here,

With memories long forgotten.

Rain is falling fast around,

As people rush on home.

With drink in hand, still it stands,

Feeling the more alone.

The music plays so loud and clear,

But no one else can hear it.

A foggy mind, a moody mind,

With drink alone to clear it.

The weather washes upon the head,

A cigarette soggy and broken.

Try to repair the feel of despair,

At the words that were never spoken.

So take a drink to the little things,

Upon which the doubt was cast,

And remember that it's not so bad,

To feel alive at last.

By J. Barrett

I Wish

I Wish

There was so much I wanted to say to you,

Before you left me all alone.

Before the only thing I had of you,

Was your picture on my phone.

I wanted to tell you the way I felt and

share this love that's deep inside;

To show you the heart you melted,

That passionate twinkle in my eyes.

But now you're gone, whirlwinded away,

And all because I was a fool.

I shouldn't have said that thing that day,

I shouldn't have lost my cool.

I wish I could go back, back to the start,

And just not do that thing I did,

That's caused us both a broken heart,

Oh, I wish, I wish, I wish!

I was a damn fool to do what I did,

To jeopardise what we could have.

I didn't realise it then, but now I wish,

That I could take every bit of it back.

You're my sun, my earth, moon and stars;

You're the stuff of which my dreams are made.

We'd taken a firm grasp of our hearts,

And my words have acted the blade.

I wish you were here, laying with me,

See the sorriness flow from my eyes,

See how my feelings for you are so deep;

So you could just realise,

That man makes mistakes, it's merely a flaw,

And I'd fix it all up if I could.

I wish you'd give me a chance, one more,

To share with you the life that we should.

By J. Barrett

Waves

Waves

The sand feels so good beneath your toes,

The great vastness of the ocean, it shows,

That in the scheme of all this, you are but a grain,

Of sand being buffered around by the waves.

As the water laps up, caressing the edge,

You wish it could cleanse out your head,

But in the end you know it will save,

As your head sinks beneath those caressing waves.

By J. Barrett

Beautiful Magic

Beautiful Magic

she cast a spell you can't escape
before you know it
she's taken it away
she got you hooked on her drug
that drives you insane
but she's taken it away
though the memory remains
those feelings of euphoria
those times you made love to her
you really don't mind the pain
except the pain in your mind
she's taken it away
how will you survive
you thought your life had found it's beat
deep down you knew one day you'd meet
but she's taken it away
and now you can't sleep
poisoned by her beautiful magic

her spell worked fast
clasping you in it's grasp
and now you wonder if it'll ever let go
tugging your heart to and fro
filling your mind with visions of her
things you try to forget
but you've failed so far
and you can't help but wonder
if this spell will ever end
if you'll ever find comfort
if the breaking will mend
the two of you joined so briefly
yet forever is but a blink
her beautiful magic
casting you to the brink
she's gone and it is so tragic
a love story departed and sad
forget her
beautiful magic

By J. Barrett

Heart Beats

Heart Beats

You're playing it like a banjo
Plucking my heart strings
In time with it's beating
A-thump-a-thump-a-thump

This game you have planned though
is doing other things
I know that I can beat it
A-thump-a-thump-a-thump

I've showed all that I can show
And I wish that I had wings
So then I could beat them
A-thump-a-thump-a-thump

With no wings though, I ran from you
The soles of my feet sting
On the cement they're beating
A-thump-a-thump-a-thump

By J. Barrett

From Where We Should Be

From Where We Should Be

When I close my eyes,

I picture us waking together,

In a bed of white linen,

As the sun beams upon us.

The beach is nearby,

The waves come rolling in,

The birds sing shrilly,

Building our morning song.

The light streams in,

Bathing your beauty in gold,

With you lying there (nothing on)

My life seems fully complete.

The smell of hot coffee,

Freshly roasted and hydrated,

Wafts through our window,

Spring loading our minds alert.

Hands begin exploring,

Fingertips waking up, buzzing,

Your soft skin warmth,

Waking the rest of me.

As I close my eyes,

Imagining this picture so perfect,

The only thing missing,

Is the fact you're not in my life.

By J. Barrett

Getting Loose and Dancing

Getting Loose and Dancing

The weekend has finally arrived,

Time for those troubles to run away,

Partying hard and harder,

Until the morning of Monday.

Mustard keen to make it mad,

Getting loose and dancing,

We're G.L.A.D – glad.

Turn it up, blast those beats,

DJ, make our bodies move and sway;

Partying hard and harder,

Until the morning of Monday.

Everyone is scantily clad,

Getting loose and dancing,

We're G.L.A.D – glad.

The floor is filled with sexy,

Steaming sweat from searing skin,

We're all here for a good time,

So you'd best be letting us in.

This will be our launching pad,

Getting loose and dancing,

We're G.L.A.D – glad.

Moving up, moving on, just moving,

This isn't the only place we've been,

We're all here for a good time,

So you'd best be letting us in.

Making our mark like a scouring pad,

Getting loose and dancing,

We're G.L.A.D – glad.

By J. Barrett

A Girl

A Girl

The ink that shadows the sun-drenched skin

The girlish innocence accompanied by sin

The pale blue eyes beneath a butterfly blink

As heartbeats are matched, beating in sync

Something that's stirring from deep within

As bodies are entwined in the softness of skin

Studded metal markers of kissing places

A sweet scent that lingers in wispy traces

Floods all the senses in those embraces

An upheaval of the brains chemical stasis

Causing the mind to verbally praise this

Feeling of warmth in the hard to reach places

By J. Barrett

Sadim

Sadim

Damn my ability to keep anything good,

I fuck it all up and tear it all down.

I get given great things, as everyone should,

But in my misery I'm intent I will drown.

By J. Barrett